Despite being the middle of june there’s still a winter chill in the air. These past months have been going slowly. Today I decided to change. I try to tell myself that beginnings are always scary, it’s best just to wing it. For months now I’ve been dreading starting. As I’ve found myself stuck in the same place I decided to make some changes. Firstly to start creating again, secondly to stop being so scared and lastly to stop comparing myself.
The fog hangs above the trees as I go into the woods to shoot. The weight and structure of the camera feels unfamiliar now that it’s so long since I’ve used it last. I’m not happy with any of the photographs and contemplate deleting them all.
I’ve been scared of change for so long it’s almost become something constant.
“Do you think I’ve changed?” I ask my friend over facebook “yes” she answers.